Remember how I said a few days ago that my sister and brother-in-law were moving away? Well, my sister told me yesterday that he's going on Saturday, and she'll be following in about a month or so... and their house is going up for sale.
And this, if I'm honest, is what I'm finding hardest of all about the fact she's going... You see, their house was formerly our family home, and where I lived up until the age of about 10. After we (Mum, Dad, my brother (who was about school leaving/starting university age) and me) moved to the house I'm in currently, my sister & her husband bought it, gutted it and did it all up... and they've lived there ever since. Which was great, because I could visit and, even though I didn't LIVE there any more, it still felt (and feels) more like home to me than where I've lived for the last 20-odd years.
It just seems really strange to think I'm still going to be able to visit my Auntie and brother who live next door to the house (well, technically, it's the same building... it's even the same number of the street), and I'm not going to be able to pop up the close and into the "family home"... because it's not going to contain family any more... I guess our family have lived there in some shape or form (grandparents, parents, then sister) for the last 100 years+, and suddenly it's going to become off-limits... someone else's property... meaning I can go as far as the gate between my Auntie's house and it, and no further...
Am I being stupid? This is really hurting me...
Anyone want to buy a lovely old house, and let me visit sometimes?
And this, if I'm honest, is what I'm finding hardest of all about the fact she's going... You see, their house was formerly our family home, and where I lived up until the age of about 10. After we (Mum, Dad, my brother (who was about school leaving/starting university age) and me) moved to the house I'm in currently, my sister & her husband bought it, gutted it and did it all up... and they've lived there ever since. Which was great, because I could visit and, even though I didn't LIVE there any more, it still felt (and feels) more like home to me than where I've lived for the last 20-odd years.
It just seems really strange to think I'm still going to be able to visit my Auntie and brother who live next door to the house (well, technically, it's the same building... it's even the same number of the street), and I'm not going to be able to pop up the close and into the "family home"... because it's not going to contain family any more... I guess our family have lived there in some shape or form (grandparents, parents, then sister) for the last 100 years+, and suddenly it's going to become off-limits... someone else's property... meaning I can go as far as the gate between my Auntie's house and it, and no further...
Am I being stupid? This is really hurting me...
Anyone want to buy a lovely old house, and let me visit sometimes?
When my Gran got forced out of her house...It took me about 3 years to get over the horror of seeing someone else ripping her trees out.
ReplyDeleteBut could this be the new start that you need? Could be this be the start of the new Ally?
Remember every coin has two sides, the perfect rainbow has two ends go to one end and follow the path to the other end.
Nope, you're not bein' stupid at all, Ally.... I know I'd feel the same way, if I were you. I still get "homesick" for the house I grew up in - lived there from 1967 - 80, and off & on throughout the 1980s.
ReplyDeleteIt's not silly at all, you may remember I posted on my blog about walking past my nans old bungalow the other day. I spent a lot of my time there when I was younger. If there is one thing my nan took pride in it was her garden. To see it with all the horrible thorny bushes in the other day made me feel sick.
ReplyDeleteSilly!!!!..never..we all would like to hang onto whatever we can of the past..especially when they have happy memories and if just one thing steps in the way we think things will change..but they don't Ally..there might be some little lass move in there with her Mummy and Daddy and the cycle starts again..so don't think about it not being in your Family..walk by and remember how things were..smile..feel all that fuzzy nice way because it doesn't matter who lives there now..you and yours lived there before and i do believe a house holds memories in it's walls etc....
ReplyDeleteand as for memories no one can take tham away from you..x