FAIL !!!!

Well, today was my exam... "SVQ/NVQ Gateway To Accounting Level 3 - Financial Records" or something like that, to give it its proper title.

It was horrible... really, really, really horrible, and I'm under no delusions at all that I've passed it. I ballsed up the Trial Balance and the Profit & Loss reports, didn't finish either, couldn't remember my credits from my debits, and carried all the wrong figures throughout because I'd not made the right adjustments, or forgotten to make the adjustments, or made the adjustments in the wrong direction... but, hey, at least I can re-sit it in June - when maybe things will be different at work, and I'll actually get some support and time off to study.

I felt sick and panicky all day, and in the exam I just wanted to cry... I couldn't concentrate on what was on the paper in front of me... my head was spinning with the sounds of traffic and roadworks outside, the tapping away on calculators inside... and I forgot even the basics.

Why am I so stupid?

And now I've got to go to work tomorrow and face the sarcastic remarks from idiot Flunky, and the boss (only half-jokingly) grumping about how he's had to pay £38 for me to fail.

Dear God, if You're going to bring about Armageddon and the end of the world any time in the near future... any chance You could do it before 9o'clock tomorrow morning, ta?