When I Fail, I Fail Big...

Just before I went to bed last night, I was finally able to check on the AAT website for the results of the exam I did last December... and there it was in black & white:

YOU ARE A FAILURE.

Failed both parts of the paper. I knew I had done, but it's still a kick in the teeth to see it there. So I've got to try again in June, along with the last Friday's simulation to do again... and another 2 simulations... and some portfolio evidence to produce... By June.

And I had to face them all at college today - the tutor, the course administrator, the other students... I just wanted to not show face there ever again - To just crawl off and lick my wounds somewhere, but I had to go. I'm still so tempted to say "Fuck it" and drop out, coz I'm sure I'm going to get to June and it won't be any better.

Down at the shop the rest of the day after college.

And that's about it, really.